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    逝戒陌日

       两个月后又上了MSN,来到了我的地盘,我虽然不是M-ZONE人,但在我的SPACES上还是可以随心所欲,再次看到之前稚嫩的文字,晃如隔世.
       想联系之前的好友同学聚一聚,大家都在忙,忙着工作,忙着上课,忙着学车,忙着找工作...好象冥冥中有种东西把我们隔开,感觉已不再象从前了.
       车本考下来了,毕设搞定了,论文交了,毕业了,工作还在找.一切都在即定的轨道上运行,前天和我们班吃了散伙饭,我们举着酒杯湖吃海喝,饭店因为头晚的大雨停了电,没有空调,我们喝着酒,打闹着,流着汗互相说着肝胆相照的话,好似3年前刚刚认识时的情景一样,不同的是那时侯的我们没有酒,坐在同样没有空调的教室里,怀着憧憬和不知道是自己还是家长的期望互相聊着.
       不知是身体里的酒精还是眼前的情景使我有些麻木了,为什么连一点不舍都没有?但却还是压抑的.看着指缝中的烟一点点燃尽,就好象自己的身体和意志消失殆尽一样....
       一口气把烟抽完,张开双臂迎接这世界末日,在捻灭香烟的同时,亲手杀死了自己,不知道转世重生的我再看这一切的时候是否会选择留下这段记忆.
      罄尽自己所有努力吸取营养,做一个茧,用来保护自己,充实自己,重生的我有两个选择,要么化蝶飞出茧,去经历风雨,感受世界,要么困在自己给自己规划的框框里,逃不出去,死在茧里....而我自己是条什么虫,由我自己来选择...

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    小白 葛wrote:
    改写写了.....你看MSN改成这个臭德行还不过来收拾收拾.......
    Aug. 3
    刚才在校友录上看到你的SPACE地址了,就过来踩一踩、浇浇水:)最近可好?
    July 15
    cherrywrote:
    你个狗屎运!那我也吃好伦哥,论赖皮你斗不过的.哈哈哈哈.要是法国赢就完美了,齐达内英雄般退役...讨厌黄健详那天疯子似的叫喊,所以不怎么喜欢意大利了.没准就是因为他,毁了一大批将会喜欢上意大利的球迷,他们白夺冠了~
    July 10

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